it's great getting together with someone you haven't really talked to since high school. sucks that you haven't talked to them since then, but it's good to finally do it.
i did that today. had coffee with a long lost friend of mine. wow, it was good.
the coffee was too! mmm, coffee.
i do wish i was better at staying in contact with people. but i think i have been getting a bit better. it's just hard... because we live in a selfish world where everything, obviously, revolves around oneself. and i'm no exception. but it's awesome to just go outside of yourself once and a while (well, more than that, hopefully) and experience it. all in all, it's good to have friends... it's good to keep in contact with friends... it's good to not be selfish... and it's good to experience all that life has to offer. wait a sec, i change my statement: all that GOD has to offer.
you know, i'm not the religious sort of christian that feels like i have to relate everything back to God and all that. but i've been alive long enough (not long long, but long enough) to know that he is good. he is real. his grace is sufficient. he has the most amazing plan for my life that even i couldn't dream up (and i'm quite the dreamer). he... is... so... good! can i say it any plainer?
wow, this is going somewhere that i wasn't even planning on. what's the deal?
anyway... back on track. i'm not one to just say, for the sake of being a christian and saying "christian" things, that God is good and he has more to offer than just life itself. but i've experienced a selfish life that i tried to lead on my own... and you know what? it wasn't fulfilling. at all. it was totally destructive to myself and every relationship with anyone i knew. and when i live for more than just me, HOLY COW! it's so so so much more fulfilling!
seriously! i've learned just from nannying... that you yourself CANNOT always be number one. i know, i know. it's hard to take. but when i got home from australia in december... it was good just to hang out and BE for a while. but then i got bored. and it was all about me and how i felt unproductive after such an amazing and productive year. then i started nannying. and these children have just totally turned that around. i am not number one when i'm with them. i can't be! i'd be horrible at my job if i considered myself first as a nanny. wow, God's just totally revealed that to me as i've been nannying (actually... he just revealed that to me right now as i'm writing this).
anyway, don't know where i'm going with this, but it's just been encouraging to me to live for more than just myself. i hope it's visible. i hope that you know how much you mean to me and how much i want to put you before me. you are the world to me. and i want to bless you like you have blessed me.
i'm usually not this long-winded. i like to keep my thoughts to myself. but i just wanted to say thanks. yeah. that's where i was going with this.
